My nursing journey has been pretty easy with Emma and I’m so grateful. I had a bit of a rough start; two months before having her I got a swollen milk duct(those hurt soooo bad), I had a brief stint with mastitis, my nipples felt like knives were cutting them every time Emma would nurse and let’s not even talk about engorged boobs. It was rough in the beginning but after Emma and I got in our groove things were smooth sailing. I love the bonding I get to have with her and that I can nourish her completely with just my body. Womens bodies are truly an incredible thing.

With that being said I feel like I’ve been putting a lot of pressure on myself to nurse her for a certain amount of time. She’s 7 months now, she’s eating purees and soft foods and with work and life in general, I haven’t had a ton of time to pump milk for our nanny and even for Aaron if I want to go run errands. It’s been an ongoing battle of I’m exhausted I would really love to go to bed right now but ughh I have to pump! Not everyday is like that but it’s so time consuming!

One of my best friends got married this month and leading up to the wedding came a lot of festivities. One of which was a bachelorette weekend in Napa. Although this mama totally needed it, I was reluctant to go because Emma was only 5 months old and I had never been away from her but another reason being how in the hell will I pump enough milk to be gone a whole weekend? The pressure I put on myself was unreal. Between having to pump for the nanny during the week and trying to save up to be gone for 3 days, I was so stressed. On top of that, I had major anxiety about traveling with 25+ bags of milk on a flight alone with Emma. It ended up being completely fine, I was able to save up enough milk but holy cow!(literally)

Fast forward to the wedding weekend. I discovered last minute that I’d have to be gone from Emma for two days and I didn’t have any milk saved up. I tried pumping nonstop. I pumped in the mornings and in the evenings. I drank a ton of water, I ate a ton of those lactation bars. It just wasn’t enough time for me to save up what I needed to be gone from her. I ended up buying formula and immediately felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. I had put so much pressure on myself to make sure that I had enough breastmilk saved up that I completely turned a blind eye to what was right in front of me. Emma ended up drinking the formula just fine and I was able to be there for my best friends big day, worry free.

It’s been a couple weeks since the wedding and we’re still using formula at least once or twice a day. I’m still breast feeding but the pressure of having to pump frequently and build up a constant stash of milk is gone. And you know what? I’m a lot happier as a mom because of it. Once I stopped letting that constant stress of how much milk I had in the freezer or what other people would think take over, I was able to be open to other options for us. I really can’t say enough things about letting things go as a parent. I went into this journey with an expectation of how things would go and as time went on I started to realize that I was just making things harder on myself when it really didn’t need to be. I struggle with this a ton and I’m sure I’ll have even more hurdles to get over as she gets older. But this is our journey and what’s working for us in this stage of life. x

Every year for our anniversary we try to go on a trip, we went to Italy for our honeymoon, last year we went to Seattle + Portland which was amazing and also our babymoon. This year I’m so excited to be heading to Maui! Aaron and I both have never been to Hawaii so I’m excited to go exploring and eat all the food. We’ll be taking Emma with us and though I have some anxiety about flying so long with her I know it’ll be a trip of a lifetime. We’re meeting some friends there as well that have a little girl and we’re all SO excited! High on my list is the Black Sand Beach, lots of fresh fish and fruit(obv) and watching the sunrise at Haleakala National Park. Do you have any recommendations for things to do/see/eat? I’d love your help! Extra points if it’s family friendly :)

In the meantime I’m trying to plan what I’ll be packing! Here’s some of my top picks. I’ve been on the hunt for the perfect one piece suit and a nice everyday coverup. These look perfect.

I’m obsessed with that backpack! My friend Jane has it and I’m such a sucker for a good everyday leather piece so I’m excited to use this on our trip. Those sandals are also the comfiest. I have about 4 pairs from Nisolo and they’re some of my favorites. x

Sources:

Off-Shoulder dress / Straw hat / Ray Bans / One Piece Suit / Backpack / Sandals / Cover-up / Shorts


Cactus Blanket / Hippo toy / Pacifier / Muslin bib

ONE → Laura Mercier flawless fusion foundation
I’ve been an avid fan of Tarte Cosmetics for awhile but lately I’ve just been feeling like my foundation was looking a little grim. I just picked up this foundation from Laura Mercier and I’m loving it so far. I have oily skin so this has a nice matte finish and one of my main requests during my search was that it didn’t transfer and was long lasting. This hits all points for me and I’m loving how it looks. It also feels super lightweight which is amazing for how long lasting it is. I’m wearing color Macadamia.

TWO → Planoly
I’ve been obsessed with this app to plan out content on instagram. It’s so easy to use and I love that it lets you schedule posts, rearrange photos so you can get your grid just right and that you can see analytics. It also let’s you plan your instagram stories! It’s been super helpful and I use it a ton for work since I do social media for businesses. I’m seriously in love.

THREE → How I Built This podcast
If you’re intrigued about how businesses got their start like I am this podcast is great! Guy Raz interviews tons of businesses like Toms, Aden + Anais and Rent the Runway. Super fascinating! I always love hearing about peoples journeys and how they got to where they are.

FOUR → I LOVE MY BABY BUT, BREASTFEEDING
I loved this honest video by Whitney Port on her struggles of breastfeeding and the pressure we put on ourselves as mothers to breastfeed. I went through some of the same struggles and it’s HARD ladies. You literally feel like your nipples are being cut open with knives for those first few weeks.

FIVE → 20 Hacks for Traveling with Baby
Emma has already been on an airplane more times than I can count which is amazing but we’re prepping to fly to Hawaii in the next few weeks which has me SO nervous because it’s such a long flight. These tips will definitely come in handy!

Well, we finally got around to finishing Emma’s nursery now that she’s 6 months old! This room is definitely one of our favorites, probably because it’s usually the cleanest. I still remember unpacking(or watching Aaron unpack) all of the boxes of furniture like it was yesterday and I’ll never forget the huge hormone induced meltdown I had over ordering the wrong size shag rug for this room(pregnancy brain?). Aaron was such a champ helping me lug it out into the living room to see if it would look good there and then helping me lug it back to this room and lay it back down under the big furniture pieces. Poor guy. Needless to say, I’m glad this room is finished and I love how it turned out! We went with all white furniture(I’m sure I’ll regret that later) and added grey and muted pinks throughout. It helped that the room was already a pretty grey color and we did a cute lamb theme with her mobile and toys. I was pretty specific with colors here, I have never been overly girly so I wanted to keep this as close to neutral as I could while still being feminine. I also wanted to be able to reuse pieces for our next kiddo.

One of my favorite pieces in this room are these little art prints from The Animal Print Shop. Aaron and I had so much fun picking out the different baby animals for her room and it was hard to keep it down to 6 for this grid!

At my baby shower we asked everyone to bring a book in lieu of a card and it was so awesome being able to fill all of her bookshelves up with books from our friends and family. I love that.

I love this rainbow print from my friend Katie’s shop, Odd Daughter Paper. It’s perfect for this room! All of her illustrations are my favorite.

One benefit of being pregnant over the holidays was all of the deals we scored during Black Friday. Almost all of our purchased furniture pieces we got at a huge discount which was amazing. Definitely recommend doing it that way if you can!

SOURCES:

3 in 1 Crib  /  Baby animal prints / Goodnight wire sculpture /  Dresser and changing table /  Diaper Pail /  White basket on dresser /  Swaddle blankets /  Bonnet /  Chair + Ottoman /  Shag Rug  /  Rainbow print  /  Lamb Crib Mobile  /  Crib skirt  /  Crib sheet /  Rainbow block set /  Changing pad cover / Fabric shade /  Nightstand /  Black out shades